Hellish Weekend

Today, I'm in a mood to blog finally.

But too bad it wasn't under a very good circumstances.

It's more like a way to express the gray mood I'm having today.

I realized I prefer to put it in words here than to pick someone to express to.

I have Amy and Pauline to complain to, but they are both busy with their stuffs currently and I don't feel like interrupt them both unnecessarily. 

First, for the past one week ain't very favorable to me.

I've received one bad news of having my friend passing away due to an accident collided on the North-South highway two weeks back.

It was very shocking to having to lose a friend just like that in a blink of eye.

I then realized how life could just be shortened like that without any warning!

I now hope that he finds his peace in his afterlife and may he be blessed with good reincarnation in the next life.

This incident seemed to wake me up in the sense of appreciating the ones whom you are surrounded with now and live your life to the fullest everyday, for you may just lose everything in one unfortunate event that you may not even foresee. 

My luck does seemed to waive for the past one week and it is so frustrating to have been issued two summons in two consecutive days!

Yes, it is myself to blame for having my car parked outside the parking box but hey, it was a raining day and there are no other places for me to park and for me to get in the premises not being soak by rain.

Mr. MPPP, I really do admire your enthusiasm in doing your job, but please spare me some times could you?

There are like so many freaking cars and places out there and why have it got to be my damned freaking car?

And now I seemed to have recalled another unpaid summon in my car that was issued last two weeks ago.

So it's like one overdue summon plus two newly issued that amounts up to RM60 in a shot!

I could have just bought 10 freaking ticket books and use it for like god knows how long!!!

Next, it is kind of a personal issue and it is not fair for him to have it complained here.

Which is the major reason of my very own cloudy day today.

I just wish sometimes he could just be a little more thoughtful in this whole relationship thing.

Yes, I understand that women are hard to understand as we are one complicated being.

But in the end of the day, what we actually wanted was such simple things, to being accompanied.

Anyhow he seemed more devoted to other activities recently and I slowly got used to being on my own and without him.

He did asked for my permission of doing it, and of course I granted him the permission to go do what he wanted.

That is mainly because I see no reason why to keep binding him to me if there is no own will of his to do so.

Guess that teaches me slowly to be fully dependent on my own too.

But that doesn't mean I'm happy with such decisions.

I guess I'm just putting myself into such miserable mood.

However, not all is bad.

At least I'm improving in terms of my career.

That means much more to me than everything now.

To have something to concentrate on and creating my very own desired future.

Keep going for myself and family is all I could say!

I guess I've come to an end here for today!

Au revoir!